Exclusive: Fatma’s Thoughts on Turning 20
As a kid, when i was just 13, i wanted to be 16. When i was 16, i could not wait to be 18. And now, i am turning 20 in less than five months. I dont really know what to expect out of 20, personally i feel like i am still this 18 year old kid at heart.
I compare my life at the moment with other 20 year olds, and my life turns out to be completely different. Its not something that i dwell on, i actually feel good about it. What is strange is that i dont really feel like 20, i dont know what i am supposed to feel at 20, its confusing me as to why i am not feeling anything. For example, at 16, its was the “official teenager”, at 18 “i finally get my license”. Every age had its own category, where as 20, i feel is a number bigger than me, something i have to learn to handle, i feel lost in turning 20 and strangely enough, i feel like a kid in 20. Deep down inside of me, i know i dont want to grow up,
i know for sure that there is a slight fear of leaving my teenage life
behind and finally start to have serious matters and issues to deal with. It is the thought of major responsibility in life that scares me, that one day, because of being 20, life itself will take its toll upon me, and for once i will understand what life is. All the cliches, and all the time grown ups that i have aspired to be told me that “life will not be as sunny as you wish” will make sense. You may be expecting a more optimistic post, however, its not that i am sad or frowning upon 20, lets just say i am not in favor of change.
1: What are the most important lessons you learned?
What are the most important lessons i learned? Lets see, well, i definitely learned the bigger problems in life. I learned that setting goals for a better future will lead you to a successful life. Having seen all the problems in the world as a 20 year old, i have learned to constantly thank god because i am blessed to have what i have today.
The most important lesson i have learned is human nature. I have realized that us humans are nothing other than selfish beings that consume and barely give back. It is the sad truth. As a 20 year old, i learned what is behind the mask of each and every person. I now know how to analyze a person by the way they walk, the way they look at things. 20 has taught me not to always see the best in people, but also the worst. Thank you 20 for making me master the art of human nature! Cheers.
2: What do you stand for as of now?
As of now, i stand behind 1. my family 2. my friends 3. education. The three building blocks that keep me standing up straight everyday. Every person needs to have family support, regardless if the family is based on 20 members or one member,
at the end of the day, family is your backbone.
To me, my friends are everything to me, i have met so many people while growing up and reaching 20, some good and some bad. However, after cleansing the bad ones, i have what i now call my second family. I love them to death and i would do anything for them. A person must feel included, they like to feel as though they are apart of something, everyone needs a friend.
Finally, education. I would not be able to write this post without being educated. As a 20 year old, i know that education is the most important factor in life. It is the main source of conversation between one another. Education is what evolves with you as you grow older, and as i turn 20, i have a better perspective of life and reality.
3: What are your plans for the future?
Wow, where do i get started with this one. Well, I hope to have my own accounting firm after graduating from university. I would love to have my hobby of fashion design extend into making my own clothing line in the near future inshalla. And finally, a dream of mine is to publish a book and keep my country aware of certain things that we see everyday but dont pay attention to. I shall wait and see what 20 has in store for me!
Thank you DDN for sharing my post about 20, i am glad! Goodluck on the rest of your blog, i love it!
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